sometimes perspective illuminates / sunny convalescence; can i modify my betrayed reaction?

i was taking some time off work to recover from burnout. getting some perspective. the sun was out. i was trying to enjoy the sensations of living.

i was thinking a lot about stoicism. focussing on those things i can control: my actions, my character, my reactions.

a betrayed reaction: as an autistic person, i don’t always process things as they happen. understanding sometimes doesn’t come until too late. the reaction has already been.

can i modify my reaction after the fact? could i reach out, apologise, explain? could i make that effort, to understand and empathise? i think so. with a bit of humility, i could rely on the generosity of good souls.