5 beta 1

i make a million lists 

and enjoy morning mist 

from november 2016

us cyclists are cut from different stuff. 

but not very much of it

aged 39, version 4.0, aged four-zero, version 5 beta 1

you gotta believe me, life comes for you, son

so i had a mid life crisis from 2022-23. i got misdiagnosed with emphysema and spiralled a bit. got very depressed. went through a break up. fell in love. then got unmisdiagnosed.

i sort of jokingly referred to my mid life crisis as benn 4.0. but before i even really got into the swing of it, i found out i was autistic. so i decided i’m not on benn 5 beta 1.