Tag: #bodyimage

sports food

as a broken limb
altered my spin
i bonk by bonkhill
(they slip a shag
in every gap)
i could be ripped
i swear
aside a predilection
for chocolate and beer
it’s a bitter sweet dichotomy,
but i need treats
eat sweet gelatine,
spluttering
up the mountain
traffic jam

what got me into sport? as a child, i just liked playing football. i was obsessive, it was all i did. i was a skinny wee boy. but i always thought i was fat for some reason. i wrote a short story about body image and social difficulties when i was about 15. i called it sunburn, but my teacher said it should be called ‘in your shadow’ and i just went along with it. i was thinking about it the other day, and decided to rename it ‘shade’.

i will dig it out and post it the blog sometime. but that was just a digression. i lost my connection to sport when i left school, and did get a little bit fat. because i love eating sweets. so i started dieting and running. lost the weight. felt accomplished.

but to keep the weight off, i needed to keep running. and, the sums are no good. a 40 minute run might only burn off two mars bars. so i got into road cycling. and now i just eat whatever sweets i fancy whenever i want. i’m not sure i would recommend this as ‘healthy’ or anything.

but the incessant mind plays the hits as usual / and the bin’s full / again i rely on a well meaning soul and forgive myself.

i remember once i was at a temp job. i was in my 20s. i was a runner at this point but just a slow one. it was before we knew about polarised training and how important squats and deadlifts are. anyway, two older women were talking. and i’m not being cheeky or judgemental, but they weren’t in good shape. less good than me, a skinny but not very toned slow runner.

anyway, on says to the other, ‘you know what’s the sexiest bit on a man?’

‘six pack?’ the other woman guesses.

‘no, the v bit sort of below the six pack.’

i’m wasn’t in bad shape when i was 24. slim and pretty active, daily exercise. but it was nice to be made to feel inadequate like that.

what do you find sexy on a man?