self-care weekend

search term “gumtree” 

eight hundred items 

cried three times 

in a basic way, 

people are just

what they do and say…

cold dry, hot dry, 

hot wet, wet wet 

transcendental massage

happy tears ending, 

middle, 

and a bit near the start

when she took my feet 

like yeshua of nazareth

then clasped my palm 

like the virgin mother

i was really worn out, i’d been busy in work, i’d had a big disappointment after missing out on a job i really wanted. i spent a weekend sorting emails and then went for a sauna and massage and it was just what i needed. i am a tense person and i have a lot of neck and shoulder pain as a result. and when i’m sore and burned out and incommunicative, i want a deep sports massage delivered with firm certainty.

but there’s also something very intimate about contact with the palms and soles of the feet. a lot of nerves there i suppose.