i am prone to getting quite into things. was very interested in linux in my 20s. i think partly because i had so little money. i love the sort of anarchist ethos of the linux / free software movement. i haven’t dabbled in quite a while now but i am curious to see what ubuntu linux looks like in 2025.
ha. i was going through a highly emotional phase. lots of tears. i was doing some work on early trauma in therapy at the time so i guess i was thinking a lot of heavy thoughts. i kept a diary of my emotions for a while. see where the triggers were. it turned out to be mostly the beautiful things in life. songs, love, the people i care about.
happy valentines day! it’s a bit late but why not buy a custom poem from the gift shop? prices are eyewateringly high but if you email me code ‘cheapskatelove’ i’ll do you a deal. 8 lines for £50 inc. vat. limited to the first 1million customers.
what is it to be a human? in any instant, all there is are the sensations you feel, see, hear, etc. a temperature, the weight of the earth pushing against your feet or arse, your shirt label on your neck. and then there is the story you tell yourself these things mean. but you know, you could be a brain in a vat being fed false experiences by a computer. and you are free to tell yourself that story if you prefer it.
i had to check back into my diary to work out what i was on about here. so it turns out, while in a weird norovirus bubble, i ‘asked for help’ by wheeling my bike into the shop for a service.
i was starting to come around from norovirus. still off work. basically incapable of eating. the only thing i could stomach was cadbury mini egg chocolate. i decided to risk a coffee.
i don’t know when i came up with this line but i knew it was an opening line and i had to just sit on it until i found a project for it. for centuries, the land has been owned by the descendants of cronies of corrupt kings who claimed the divine right to steal nature’s bounty.
the very first principle of liberty, per john locke, is that by mixing one’s labour with the land, one can take ownershup of it, as long as enough is left for others. this caveat was quickly forgotten by libertarians and aristocrats alike.
beneathe the distant barren peaks of a toblerone
i had decided i wanted to write an epic poem about brexit called toblerone after a shrinkflation measure increased the steepness and gaps of the chocolate troughs. i started writing the poem several times without success before it clicked in 2024 – brexit is a permanent process, the poem must also be a permanent process.
the traumatic trough entrenches resilience
the trough refers to both the increased gap between the peaks of the austerity toblerone, and to the inverse trough, that of the profit hungry pigs, feating on the chocolate shavings. from the many to the few, a tale as old as yawn is it that late already
a slight slide and crunch underfoot on icy steps
well it was january. i can’t recall the steps referred to, but i have always delighted in the crunch of virgin frost underfoot. it is january again now, and there is again ice underfoot, although it is the solid, rather than the crunchy sort. significantly more lethal.
the organism (the leviathan) slips into disequlibrium
my body like my polity. recalling thomas hobbes’s leviathan, a brutal philosophy of man in the state of nature, who by neccesity, in order to escape murderous anarchy, incorporates a vile king to rule over him. but people are perhaps fundamentally disagreeable. all tyrannies eventually end and it is the natures of states to be merely that: temporary states of being.
after 14 years of conservative incompetence, great britain, it seemed to me, was becoming ungovernable. likewise, my body, my monsterous corpus, was succombing to a shellfish related vomitting bug. sick with norovirus – i slipped into a debilitating disequilibrium.