i feel it is important to celebrate rejection. somewhere buried in the disappointment there is hopefully a lesson. something constructive to be taken. a way to improve. but even if there isn’t, even if you just tried your best and failed, isn’t it better to have given it a shot? and now, a year later, i can look back and i know that if i hadn’t had this rejection, i would have missed out on other acceptances.
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you trust me again, you always could, that love is unconditional / and universal, and specific, and ebbs and flows throughout / the systems, internal and external, that are of us.
i try and live my life according to the principle of universal unconditional love. it’s really difficult. i don’t live up to it. gonna keep trying.


spotting louder nearly home, millhouse coming up everything
remember the episode of the simpsons where millhouse is wearing sort of pedal pusher, calf length trousers? and the flood comes in and he is like, ‘it’s all comin’ up millhouse’? it is a sad day for anyone when they realise that millhouse is the character of the simpsons they are most like.
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multi-pizza two score and a spare bon-anniversaire
it was my good friend’s birthday so i ate two pizzas apparently.
story and sensation is all there is, between the end and the beginning
what is it to be a human? in any instant, all there is are the sensations you feel, see, hear, etc. a temperature, the weight of the earth pushing against your feet or arse, your shirt label on your neck. and then there is the story you tell yourself these things mean. but you know, you could be a brain in a vat being fed false experiences by a computer. and you are free to tell yourself that story if you prefer it.
cursed inadequate chuck-sticking, can’t hold cash either
i can’t really throw. or catch. i’ve got a bit better at it over the years, but i am just not a hand eye coordination sort of person. likewise, i am not designed to use raquets. i once chucked a tennis raquet into the air in frustration, only to catch it with my face shortly thereafter.
i don’t think i have ever successfully struck a shuttlecock. and how anyone can hit a baseball with such a narrow bat i’ll never comprehend.
so it’s little surprise that i am also hopeless at chucking sticks for the dog. yet every time, i’m a bit disappointed in myself. a bit of me seems to believe i’m eventually going to get the knack of it.
my airpod uneared into a drain so i chanced an upgrade
ah well. so it’s a year i’ve had these airpods now. returning from an early morning climbing session, my airpod escaped the ear canal and went for the drain instead. i presume anyway. i looked for a while then went to argos and bought new ones. can’t live an adequate life without headphones.
the king came with the bangers, we stayed for the ballads
in the 90s i used to take long coach trips. to france, italy, spain. one year, i must have been 7 or 8, for entertainment we got a documentary about elvis pressley. i was instantly obsessed. and then suddenly bereaved – my hero was dead before i even knew him. i cried. i listened to elvis tapes. i got a leather jacket. quite autistic, in retrospect.
i don’t listen to as much elvis these days. but i will always love the king. and if suspicious minds comes on the radio, i will give it my full attention every time.
to morrisons partick, hover on a ba’ sac/re-up on buddha and kippers
i met a pal at the supermarket and i think he mentioned he had recently had an injury to the testicles. and then i bought some kippers…

jerk foul, jerk fish, take the pineapple express
i had jerk fish and chips at a carribean themed restaurant and it was really nice. best fish and chips ever probably. there must have been a pineapple chutney or something. it reminded me of roots manuva’s witness (1 hope). and to avoid accusations of plagiarism, i named the verse ‘witness (1 dope)’, me being the dope eating the jerk and summoning the power of banana clan.










